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woah!!! i still have one of these! cool...
um, hi guys.
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evil: 1. morally bad or wrong (check)
2. causing ruin, injury or pain; harmful (check)
3. characterized by or indicating future misfortune (idontknow?)
4. bad or blameworthy by report (check)
5. characterized by anger or spite (check)
"it aint all confusion."
.......... yes it is.
upsanddownslikeamotherfuck.
i hate it.
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[22 Apr 2003|06:09pm] |
run to me...
i will wrap a warm blanket around your cold shoulders
i will hold you close till the storm is over
i will take every bit of my strength
and feed it to your heart
i will kiss your tears away
as i conceal my own with serenity
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[18 Apr 2003|04:10pm] |
"when you lose it to some guy named junior with bad breath in the back of a van in the parking lot of a Guns'n'Roses concert you're gonna wish you listened to your mother when she said, 'nobody's gonna wanna buy the whole friggin' ice cream truck if you're handing out the popsicles for free!'"
The teacher from Never Been Kissed (Michael Vartan) is unbearably beautiful. kills me.
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[17 Apr 2003|03:30pm] |
ISS wasn't so bad today.
I made word search puzzles with hidden messages for katey and rose and I listened to Pink Floyd. I forgot how good they are.
I think Mr. Peppers is mad at me because i put him through the washing machine.
I dont blame him... but i HAD to do it, he was starting to smell.
Plus, he's a penguin, he can swim.
And I'm going to make it up to him tonight.... he's gonna party!!!
hello weekend, here i come...
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"just wanted to be myself...
hey, you said you would love to try some.
hey, you said you would love to die some."
rachel and i were on a mission tonight. we always have so much fun on those. then we met up with mike and you know what happened. then we go to the track in the rain and run/hop/dance/skip/fall around stoned. it was fun.
"Pleh! I need somebody....
Pleh! not just anybody....
Pleh! I dont know this line....
Pleeeeeh!"
only one more day of ISS. hopefully tomorrow will be more interesting....although it is an hour longer... and then WEEKEND. oh the joy it brings! thursday night sounds very promising. and then saturday, sun and beach and drugs! woohoo.
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[15 Apr 2003|11:42pm] |
i dont want to be an adult
or a teenager
i just want to be a person
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i'm trying to let go.
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stupid undercover cops.
school really is a prison...
and now i have two days of ISS. (second offense)
other than that incident i believe i had good timing today. i just went with the flow... and everything happens for a reason.
throwing things away is a lot harder than i thought it would be. i need to learn discipline.
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[14 Apr 2003|11:55pm] |
"and it's true we are immune
when fact is fiction and TV reality
and today the millions cry
we eat and drink while tomorrow they die..."
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[10 Apr 2003|11:54pm] |
i hate boys. (no, not really... dammit.)
i hate mistakes.
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[09 Apr 2003|10:49pm] |
i had such a bad temper today.
where does all this anger come from???
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sometimes i feel so overwhelmed i cry.
its not a bad cry. or a good cry.
it's just a cry.
a simple release of emotions.
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[07 Apr 2003|11:05pm] |
today i read an entire book. it was easy reading and only like 230 pages. but it's just weird cause it's been so long since a book has intrigued me that much that i couldn't stop till it was done. i know i sound like a nerd but honestly, i dont care.
i am committed to cleaning out my room. other than the fact that i HAVE to by next week "or else" from the parentals, i've decided that i have WAY too much "stuff". most of it isn't valuable or something that i wasted money on while on a shopping spree, it's mostly just sentimental crap that i've had for years, or weird junk i could use for some recycled art project that i will never take the time to actually do. but worthless or not, it's still material possessions that are unnecessary.
"Images, memories, thoughts- they were the only real possessions any of us had anyway."
i need to learn to let go.
i feel so awake. and i didnt even have a nap today! shock of all shocks!! i feel like i just want to start living already, i've wasted too much time.
go live too, you might enjoy it.
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[02 Apr 2003|11:36pm] |
this are my goals for tomorrow:
-smile.
-take a nap.
-go to all classes.
-go to attendance study hall.
-give a hug, get a hug.
-do some sort of exercise.
-read.
-take out the trash.
-make a long distance call.
-clean out lamaze's tub.
-learn at least three new words.
-write in a REAL journal.
-do a handstand.
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[29 Mar 2003|06:55pm] |
i ended up staying up till six:00am.
i love my dad. and it's not every day that you hear me say that.
i watched the lion king today. is it ok to find cartoon lions sexy? i dont know.... maybe my fever was getting to me. it was above 102 degrees today. and then newsies... *sigh* i'm still in love with all of those boys.
"life is too short to be pissed off all the time..."
watch American History X. just do it.
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[29 Mar 2003|03:59am] |
3:46 in the mother fucking am.
hi, i can't sleep. can't sleep. woke up about an hour and a half ago. it wasn't the first time i woke up tonight, perhaps the third or fourth, but for some reason, this time i couldn't go back to sleep. stupid chills. hot. cold. hot. cold. cough. sneeze. cough. sneeze. blow my nose. i couldn't stand lying in bed any longer. health is always taken for granted. you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
i made one outing today to walmart (and kfc to get those chicken wings for just $2.99! damn commercials are so controlling.) i bought some cough drops and picked up my pictures from my party. well what do you know, i don't remember taking half of those pictures. and i have like five pictures with derek... what the fuck? i don't even remember hanging out with him. sorry. i didn't think i was that fucked up. but apparently there are a few blank spots in my memory.
i also decided to buy a dvd since i knew i'd be home sick on a friday night. i bought Girl, Interrupted. I had never seen it before but i heard it was good and someone once told me that i reminded them of angelina jolie in that movie. but now that i've seen the movie i'm not so sure that's a good thing. i guess i used to be kinda like her, but now i think i relate more to winona ryder in that movie. anyways, it was good.
my mom is back and she got me more apple juice cause i was out. cold apple juice is so soothing on a sore throat. i miss my sisters. i don't like being an only child. come back rachel, come back! eve called today i used to strongly dislike her. but she's so much easier to get along with when you don't live with her. maybe it was the aries vs. aries thing.
anyways i need some motherfucking sleep. although i doubt i'll get it.
p.s. i quit marijuana.
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| Sunday bloody Sunday! (message in a bottle...) |
[23 Mar 2003|11:26am] |
jah juju lips juice, jah juju lips vodka, jah juju lips chips, jah juju lips tea!
first song of the day: Sunday Bloody Sunday =)
eek a mouse sucked. then i came back into town at like 9:30. everyone was in waiamea. but i cruised with risch and kemi. under the bridge downtown i sent off a message in an empty but still sticky half gallon apple juice bottle. we called a random number at 1:30. it was an old man. he asked what we were celebrating... (how did he know?) so we told him, my birthday. then he said, you're 18 now? and i was like wtf? and i got scared cause i was all paranoid(i wonder why) and tripping out so i lied and said no. but i think i'll call him back today and let him know the truth. i think i ended up hanging up on him cause i didn't know what to say. i partied from 1:00 in the afternoon till 2:30 in the morning. woohoo! and tonight...? we shall party again.
"you should tell them 'i'm having a baby.' then say, no nevermind. i'm not." -risch
wtf?
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